She had no one and she didn't miss anyone

Posted on 20th May at 2:05 AM

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I want to write it down for Moore to stop freaking out and understand a bit (though she has big problems with understanding ).

I'm a few days off any kind of meds and Blank is back. I forgot how it is to be fully me, cause meds made me feel like a sort of human being...or even a woman at some point. But old me is back!

I've been looking for some people who have the same situation as me, but found no one. I don't think someone would understand me anyway, the same as I don't understand how it is to be human. LGBT is mostly full of shit and tolerates what they want to tolerate, it can be as intolerant as random people not connected to any gender community. I think the closest I am to, it is agender people, cause I'm neither male or female, but they have NO gender. I do have my own gender in which I feel like myself.

Blank has a few ideas for my look to make it less 'human', but the terrible truth is, I'll never be able to fully express myself, cause for this, I should get rid of this ugly shell, it disgusts me each time I look at it so I ignore it. I don't see it when I look in the mirror, I see what I want to see, I feel what I want to feel and it makes me happy and calm. Though it's saddening you can't get rid of your body...

So, Moore... Blank isn't a monster like you, she's the one to save me from the world. She doesn't want me to be dead and YES, she has no feelings, but it's GOOD. It makes her unbeatable, you can't hurt someone who has no heart.

I guess most of you if contact me gonna talk to Blank since now, cause Trish is too deep to communicate. But you won't see any difference, I promise

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