No one cares

Posted on 1st Jan at 3:55 PM

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Or rather no one gives a fuck so Im gonna say this one. For all of you, my dear fans, watchers, stalkers and friends. Well those of you that actually give a flying fuck about me. I am going through some rather tough times in my life right now. As of late I've not been posting or been very active. Mostly because I broke my laptop. Dear dear laptop. So I am forced to use my house computer that is shared with young children. Hence nothing to graphic and sadistic or masochistic as in my regular style.

I will be offline for an undisclosed amount of time. Why you may ask? Well I'm finally ending my life as a fucking literal house slave for my family and I'm going to live with my Master.

Yea you fucks heard me loud and clear. I'm leaving my family for my Master.

I am finally ready to be happy and not suicidally depressed any more. I finally realized that in order for me to do that I need to leave this horrible environment. Don't get me wrong, I love my mom and my family. But I am 20 years old. I've had one boyfriend for the past 5 years (well exactly 5 years in 12 days from this post). I want to live my own life and not have to take care of my baby brothers for the rest of my life. I want to go to college and have fun. I want to be able to lose this disgusting fat on my body and indulge in wearing Gothic Lolita clothes. I want to be able to freely wear my collar as a sign of my slavery to the one man I love. I want to get tattooed and pierced. I want to be able to show off those things as if they were the scars I have inside me. I am a sick and twisted person, as you might have seen it reflected in my poems and some of my drawings especially my latter drawings while I was in my last year of high school while I was bored. And I know not many of you really give a fuck about me. Im just another "fish" so to say in the sea of artists. There's nothing really special about me other than the fact that I've been with one man for a whole five years without a major fight or anything. But that is the power of true love. And that's the main reason for me leaving the nest. My mom didnt like him in the beginning but she learned to deal with him and see that he really cared for me. And she knows that I want to spend my life with him. It's just that she doesn't want to accept it because Im her eldest child and she still sees me as her baby.

So in closing, I'd like to say that during this transition I will have no internet access (well limited access) and please bear with me as I will also be making a new account as soon as Master and I have settled in and get a computer and internet access.


And for those of you who cared enough to read this rant of some crazed freak, you can email me at kiragod616@gmail.com and I'll give you and up to date if you wish. Or for you faithful followers who wish to know when I'll be making a new account and what the name will be so they may add me to their watch list.

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